THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE ………

my astonishing ray of light was born on the 3^rd of August 1996 for which I am thankful to our Beloved Abba Father beyond words. It was a day enfolding from darkness to light where in reality Malaysia had a nation wide power outage just after 5.oo in the evening. And God said … 'Let there be LIGHT and there was light' ~ Genesis 1 : 3 ~ the birth of my beloved and adorable  baby boy!

Whilst the entire nation was going through massive chaos which brought about a standstill, here I was embracing the arrival of my most precious bundle of JOY ……. Li’l Jerome Noah!

My precious son, LOVE is not easy to put into words especially a Mother’s love, the depth of which is unfathomable. There could never be a better day than today being  ….your BIRTH*day, to share and express my deepest thoughts of all that you are and for all that you have been to me! Your growing years were the most memorable and irreplaceable experience of my life. Tiny toes and li’l fingers enough to clasp with my hands and as my voice speaking to you that “I am here with you and always will”. When I look at you now, I don’t just see you a 16 year old teenager, I see you in all of your life’s stages before my eyes. I see you as a newborn, resting in my arms, I see you in your ‘Bananas in Pyjamas’ playing hide and seek just before you get ready to snuggle in bed, I see you lying horizontally with your favourite Winnie the Pooh & Friends and Peter the Rabbit story books, reading with your marble eyes, legs crossed! It’s funny because you would already finish reading the next page even before I flipped it! Then comes the collections of your favourite toys …. cars, cars, cars and cars, the toy that caught your attention almost instantly. You could spend hours gazing and talking to the WHEELS! I also see you during the “Mum, not fair, not fair!” stage, I see you in the bargaining stage when you would ask “Mum, what would you give me if I'd listen!”, I also see you during the times you stood in a corner when you had to think about the naughty things you had done!
Most specially your laughter and joyful spirit was magical! Your inquisitive self left you awestruck at almost everything that you looked at and soon after that ... there came your ‘holy curiosity of inquiry’! I see you in your navy blue shorts and pressed white shirt of your primary school and I see you in your football jersey and boots running in the field with all your might to score that mighty goal of your life!

As much as a mother nurtures her children, her children are the epitome to magnify that precious gift of motherhood. My dear son, you have taught me many things and through you I have learnt to grow in strength and to embrace the blessings of a single mother. Son, you are stronger than you can imagine.

Jerome, as you continue your journey into adulthood always hold on to the gift of divine courage and wisdom ~ wisdom comes quietly. With this gift you will 'soar' and navigate all kinds of changes with acceptance. Embrace the ability to accept life as it enfolds. This is a gift that will guide you well like a compass direction in the years to come, because life is about growing amidst the change. Always know that in life there are chapters but not destinations. And if you are able to visualize each stage as having a beginning*, middle* and end* it will be easier to recognize God’s plans for you in His time. Always know, if you are surprised or sidelined unexpectedly, hold on to your faith! That’s when you will appreciate your shining abilities to navigate change.

My dearest son, as you embrace each chapter of your life, understand that God has a specific lesson in His knowing wisdom sees that you must learn. Chapters of trials and tribulations draw us near to Him and joyful chapters illuminate the glory and wonders of life. Jerome, both are important. A faith journey is a daily one. It is important for you to see your moral choices both grave and not. Your choices will lead you close to God or further from Him. Always choose wisely, as lasting happiness is not always derived from worldly attractions. It is a reflection of living your values, even when it is difficult, even when choosing to stand for what is right and that would mean, that you will lose friends or at times something that you treasure most.

My daily prayer is that you will be filled with the gift of clear sightedness as you begin to take your steps towards adulthood! My precious son Jerome, today I celebrate your 16 years of life with pride and joy. You have brought so much meaning into my life. Our Beloved Father has amazingly blessed and entrusted me not just by taking the role as a mum and friend but for gracing me to experience the true essence of walking this journey with you.

‘Jerome’ as you carry the meaning of ‘holy one’ and ‘Noah’ which means ‘life-giving’ & ‘comforter,’ may you continue to magnify these significant meanings each time your name is called from all those around you!

Jerome Noah! as you begin your Birthday celebration, I couldn’t have dedicated a more amazing song for you today, nothing more but from your most passionate and favourite team and theme ….. LIVERPOOL ‘You’ll Never Walk Alone’! Yes, my precious son, You have never walked alone and you’ll never walk alone. Your Ever Loving Father in heaven will never for a moment leave your sight.

When you walk through a storm

Hold your head up high, and don’t be afraid of the dark

At the end of the storm
There’s a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind

Walk on through the rain

Though your dreams be tossed and blown

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you’ll never walk alone

You’ll never walk alone.

You’ll never walk alone as I will always be there for you, right there behind you as you move forward to fulfill all your dreams! I’ll be your loudest cheer leader and proudest mum. You’ll never walk alone as you embrace the love, joy, comfort and strength from your loving family, your loved ones and friends! You’ll never walk alone because many are yet to come into your life and you’ll find them each passing day! WALK ON WITH HOPE IN YOUR HEART!

BLESSED 16^TH BIRTHDAY MY DARLING JEROME NOAH!

With all my love and hugs as always,

Your loving Mum.

I always have a great passion for intricate handiwork, because I am an ardent admirer of the arts ~ I believe in anything that we do, it is significant that one places one’s heart in it.

Hence, Tapestry of Life! …. a journey to carve my love for the beautiful wonders of ….. nature in the splendour of flora and fauna, landscapes, oceans far beyond reaching the horizons with silver linings, oil painting, stained glass art, floral art, mosaic art, all that relates to the brilliant colours and weaving of  ~ Tapestry~!

Recalling the events of life, I managed to capture the high altitude far reaching view of my own life … and amazingly I saw the beauty of my journey and how much I have to be thankful for. In so many different ways I have had a rich and meaningful journey and I am truly grateful for these experiences. Still learning, I must say and yes!!! indeed … each day continues to be  a learning experience.

Walking through lives journey and having to turn the pages of pain, mistakes, bad decisions, words and actions, I know that there is this gift for ‘change’. With peace in my heart by the Grace of God, I have walked this journey of life thus far and by the Grace of God I will continue on ...  .

Life is magnified just like a tapestry. It reveals the beauty of the tapestry as it enfolds in real time. Before the beauty is revealed, the back view of a tapestry to the eye is nothing more than a jumble of thread, tangled, occasionally knotted, frayed and seemingly random! Just like life ... with so many unexpected turns and trials.

It’s only when you turn a tapestry over that you see the miraculous beauty, the rich colours, the fine threadwork, texture and the finished patterns that magnifies the astonishing beauty of Tapestry. 

Likewise, God gives us a glimpse of His purpose as He weaves into the fabric of our lives. The gracious peak of glory from nothingness gives us the courage to soldier on knowing that nothing happens by coincidence. No single thread of experience ~ good or bad ~ happy or sad ~ is ever wasted.  Our Beloved Father is weaving each of our life, knowing precisely what He is doing. We need to embrace a glimpse of God’s side of the ‘Tapestry’ in allowing God to finish the finer details of His amazing beautiful work of human art with the palm of His loving hands.

If we could only take a moment to see the Tapestry of Life of which our lives are interwoven our eyes will be opened to the miracles and joy of life. Let It Be! Let God's wisdom flow.

Seek not so soon to disapprove this work nor yet assign with each darker thread, there twines a thread of gold. Spin cheerfully, not fearfully. He knows the way you plod. Spin carefully, spin prayfully. But leave the thread with God.

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Let us for a moment journey back in time to the Flower Power Era as we hold on to the  good old days! Here's to each of you, one of the Best from Beatles!